hey Bloggers,
Wow. Where do I start? I just had the highlight of my life. Yes, in my
twenty-two years of existence here on earth, I can say that I already had the
BEST DAY of my LIFE. No exaggerations, I had it. Really, it could not have been
better than that. As I am writing this blog, a LOT of things are rushing into
my mind right now, I just wish that I could remember every detail right. As in
every detail, I wish I could tell you everything, but unfortunately I can't.
But this is my promise, I WILL tell you everything I CAN. :)
Okay, here goes. Exactly six days ago, I had the BEST day of my life, I
mean the joy that I felt that day is apparently still so evident. Everyone says
I look and seem to be different, and you know what? I do feel different,
Different in the BEST way possible. Sure, I've always been this bubbly, quirky,
child-like, cheerful and energetic type of person; but now? I feel like despite
this cheerful personality of mine, I'm no longer happy, I'm now joyful. What's
the difference? Being happy is based on certain happenings (thus the word
'happy' was born) Being joyful is having this positive outlook despite of the
happenings around you, it's this certain GREAT FEELING you have when you wake
up in the morning which lasts until you go back to bed that same day and you
feel exactly the same way as you feel so refreshed the next day, that's what I
have now and I feel extremely BLESSED to have this. I really want everyone to
feel this way, to have this feeling, everyone CAN.
I
just had the most incredible adventure; a journey not to the past, but instead
a journey to what lies ahead. Not necessarily in the future, but what comes
after that. This may sound weird to others, but they say that to be a good
writer, you have to write what you know, and throughout my adventure in life, I
have learned, seen and experienced a lot of things, and this, what I am about
to write is what I know...
During an event, we were given a chance to have an encounter with God; a
LOT had their different testimonies and stories to share with their encounter
and meeting with GOD and as each person shared I told myself, I want that... We
were told that we could all experience that, as long as we would have FAITH.
TRUSTING GOD that what HE shows us is real, removing the deceptions coming from
the enemy and just believing that it is GOD who is speaking... Have FAITH, that
is the number one key to get into HIS KINGDOM.
As I
closed my eyes, I prepared myself to whatever GOD has set out for me, I
suddenly felt the spirit of fear and doubt slowly creeping inside me;
attempting to stop my Worship to God.
"Father, take all
these doubts and fears away and just take me with you. God I'm ready" I thought
I focused my
everything to HIM, as in my absolute everything; eyes, hands, feet, mind, and
heart as I softly whispered...
"God, just take
me with you, please."
I suddenly felt
different, somewhat at peace and at ease, a certain level of comfort which is
unlike any other, I was so in awe of everything that I felt like crying
again,
"Father, please,
send your angel; my angel and take me to where You are" I told Him.
Everyone fell silent,
as did I, no noise, no sound, no music, nothing. I continued to focus my
everything to HIM, finally ready, I tightened my grip on my bible, my eyes
still shut. Quiet. Silence. Relaxed. Comfort.
"God, I am ready,
take me with you, now na" I said
I still
felt comforted, extremely relaxed and at peace. Like nothing can ever go wrong,
I just continued to think of HIM, then suddenly, I felt this cool touch on my
upper left shoulder, is
this it? I thought, then I felt
this comforting breeze pass through and the cool touch on my upper left
shoulder was slowly sliding down to my left arm okay, this must be it. I told myself, but I heard no one speaking, so I just waited.
I didn't want to get distracted by anything. Then I somehow felt someone beside
me, this light feeling continued to increase.... it was a presence so pure and
filled with gladness, an unexplainable presence, someone was beside me, someone
was resting their hand on my arm, on my left arm, someone was there to fetch me
and take me where I wanted to go for a long time. I felt that perfect mixture
of both excitement and anxiety
"GAME?" she
said. It was a woman's voice, her voice was so soft yet firm, she sounded light
and friendly. Her voice was like a drop of honey tickling your ear; her voice
sounded somewhat familiar, I still kept my eyes closed, so without seeing
anything or knowing who she was, I somehow knew that I could trust her, so with
no questions asked, I nodded.
The moment I
nodded, I suddenly saw this white white WHITE light, and there she was, a woman
in white covered with so much beauty. Her skin was glowing with radiance, fair,
but not scary or freakishly white. She was so beautiful, mestiza as others may
describe the features that she had. Her hair was flowing with the perfect
mixture of platinum blonde and beach blonde, a color I could not even find in
any hollywood celebrities, it was like blonde but at the same time it's not,
it's the type of color that I haven't seen before, it was perfect and neat with
a white band attached to her forehead; her eyes were so nice; her lashes were
long and in perfect curl-thick lashes but it suited her so well, and underneath
that are her deep and expressive brown eyes. Her lips were shaped so perfectly
with a hint of pink. The simplicity of her beauty are the exact same things
that made her extravagantly and breath-takingly beautiful. Next thing I knew, everything
was white. As in WHITE. There was this blinding white light and I was in this
WHITE room. A white place, I have no idea why, since it was my first time to
get there, I was of course expecting to see the things that these people shared
and I was expecting to see my idea of Heaven, the Golden gates, the Golden
Stair-case, Angels with Trumpets to celebrate an arrival of the soul,
Clouds--what we usually expect to see, but no, I did not see any of those,
nothing but white. I was not disappointed or anything, I was just expecting, I
dunno. I guess you really don't know what to expect when you get there. All I
know is that everything was radiantly WHITE. Maybe because it is my favorite
color? I dunno, I didn't ask; She was still with me in this white place, she
was smiling, somehow I knew that I could trust her, she is my angel; the angel
that God has sent to fetch me here on earth. Upon realizing that, she smiled at
me and gave me a verse. She said that verse three times till I nodded. I
suddenly remembered one of the Pastors saying that we can ask our angel's name
when they fetch us.
"What's your
name" I asked. She smiled at
me again and giggled. Her giggle was just as sweet and innocent as a baby's
first laugh. She of course answered my question and told me her name, I'm not
sure if I can spell it correctly because of course I am just basing this on phonetics.
She then lightly
placed her hand on my shoulder and lead me towards a door in this white room.
As the shining white door drew nearer and nearer, I couldn't help but look
around-everything was still white, Radiant White (if there were such a color
with that description) the thing is, I know the color white, I've seen the
color white, I've chosen the color white as my favorite color but this white
place was different,. It wasn't off-white, pearly white or pinkish-white, no.
It was Radiant White -Heavenly, Holy, Pure, Glorified White. It was glowing
with so much beauty. It was the most perfect shade of white that I've ever
seen. As we were reaching the door, no one was speaking, though I felt her
holding me the entire time, a few inches left from the door, I began to notice
it looked and how much it stood out. It was shining, glowing- a perfect
description of it is from the disney song "a whole new world" the
door was "shining, shimmering, splendid" It was so HOLY that I felt
so UNWORTHY going near it, not to mention touching it. I looked at her again,
and she just responded with a smile and I as usual said nothing, not a moment
later, the door opened, I actually do not know why but for some reason, I knew
that this door was being opened by someone whom I have been waiting for my
whole life, as it continued to opened; I saw HIM, in perfect, glowing and
illuminating white robes-smiling, Yes, He was smiling at me. Though I was not
able to see HIS face, probably because HE's just so GLORIOUS but I knew He was
smiling, I knew how His smile looked like. His smile was perfect, filled with
so much joy and LOVE. He had that perfect smile that everyone longs to see and
have. He then extended His arm to the side as if welcoming and inviting me to
come it. I immediately locked my eyes onto His hand as He gestured His
invitation-It was perfect-HIS HAND WAS PERFECT. no scars, no calluses, no
wounds, no holes, not even a shed of pain nor a hint of sin. PERFECT. Yes, our
Lord and Savior JESUS CHRIST opened the door for me. It was HIM. And honestly,
how I wished I could have asked to see HIS face, HIS eyes that I could've
described HIM in detail, but without seeing His full features, I was contented.
His beaming presence was just so much more than enough for me. Weird, right?
I've seen HIM but I haven't seen Him. Again, I am just writing what I know. I,
then responded to HIS gesture by taking a few steps forward into the place
where HE is at. and Oh. My. Goodness! I walking into the most MAGNIFICENT
garden ever. Each splash of color in the garden was so vibrantly alive!
It was like the color of everything there has reached their highest level of
pure intensity. There were bush-like plants with royal-purple flowers. Flowers
that I haven't even seen before but LOVED the moment I saw them. I have no idea
what it's called but I now consider it my favorite flower. The grass were
extremely green and just like what others have seen, they are just one-inch
high from the ground; the butterflies were everywhere each has it's own distinct
combination of colors-all flying joyfully in the garden, the waterfalls, (yep,
waterfalls in this garden) are so high and glorious colored in electric blue
waters; the mist coming from the ends of the falls filled the river which
generates that certain scent of freshness. The trees were so tall and so much
alive, they had the familiar gleaming mint-like crisp aroma with the beauty of
peace in them. As Jesus and I walked through the garden, I felt the trees
bowing to HIM, All creation bowing down to our LORD. It was such a surreal
feeling! HOW AWESOME IS THAT?!? I felt the calm breeze of Heaven passing
through my skin, I was HOME. The real definition of HOME. Everyone and
everything was just so perfect.
*this photo was done by Alkiane Kramarik whom GOD has spoken to. I was stunned to see this photo painted by her, this is EXACTLY what I saw. EXACTLY.
I don't
know how it happened, but I was with my angel again, I asked her a few
questions about being in the arms of our God for eternity, how they just gladly
worshiped HIM all day and I actually found out that she was one of those angels
who plays and sings for HIM. We ended up sitting on the grass, singing praises
and worship songs for HIM. It was so great because that is exactly how I felt
like doing in those moments, singing songs for HIM. Praising HIM. Then as she
continuously played her platinum gold guitar, she played a melody so pure and
holy that I just remained silent as she played. The harmony/sound on the guitar
that she played was something I haven't heard before, the sound was so angelic,
so perfect, every note she played blended and fitted each note perfectly. It
was brilliantly played, better than all the best music here on earth, nothing
can ever top that melody. How I wished I could play the guitar as well as her,
or maybe just maybe attempt to mimic the song that she played, it was worship
and truly, the melody that she played was GLORIFYING HIS GREATNESS! It was
another WOW moment in Paradise. Honestly, I wished I could play the guitar that
elaborate and perfect, she then nodded and gestured to the right, and I saw
Jesus approaching us, my angel was gone as Jesus drew nearer towards me, He
offered HIS hand which I gladfully took and we were at the white door again, I
suddenly had this feeling that it was time to go, that my time here in Heaven
was about to end. He then looked at me as I raised my head and looked at HIM as
well, He told me the verse that my angel told me during the first part of my
journey here, He then talked to me, He explained the mission that He has for me
and the tasks that HE wants me to do, I of course, nodded, I did not say
anything, Jesus Himself was speaking to me, telling me my purpose and what He
wants me to do for Him. His voice was perfect, deep, calm and sincere. A voice
pure, holy and manly. I felt that it was again about to end, it was coming
near, He again gave me the verse, I nodded, but this time, I asked Him
"Wait, what am I suppose to do with this? Read it? Spread it? Write
about it?" I was curious, I did
not really know what to do with it, it wasn't quite clear to me
He then gave me a smirk, I could feel the corners of His lips curl up before
answering in His deep, calm and velvet voice...
"Meditate on it" he calmly answered.
"So, I'll get to see you again?" I asked.
He flashed His smile, All Glory and Beauty showing
"Of course." He firmly answered
The moment He said that, I felt my heart jump with gladness, this isn't the
last time, I'll still see Him. I will see HIM again. I was just so happy, Of
course, it was more than assurance. it wasn't just a simple YES, though that
would have sufficed but He said Of course, now, that statement itself is filled
with so much promise. And knowing how and who He is, He never goes back on His
promises. I am just so happy because I'll get to see Him again, face to face,
standing before Him. I can't wait.
As I was about to leave, I could not help but ask Him one more thing...
"Can't I just stay here with You forever?" I immediately asked
He looked at me, not with shock, or anger or anything negative, instead, it was
the opposite. He looked at me with such ease, so much calmness, so much
gentleness, so much LOVE. I could feel the light and comfort weight of His
stare even if I could not see His face, He had this way of comforting me and
calming me down, I just felt so at peace in HIS presence. He smiled at me
again, a smile filled with Love and just thinking about it, looking back at
that moment, reminiscing each and every detail of that moment; how He made me
feel so loved, so thankful that someone as kind, compassionate, caring, and
loving as He is loves me.
He raised His hand, lightly and softly placed it on my head, brushed my hair
with His fingers, I felt as each strand of my hair passed between each of His
fingers as He then tucked it behind my ear and gently said
"Yes" He paused. I
waited for another second
"But not yet. You still have my mission for you, remember?" He smiled at me again, still with that pure
and genuine smile and I felt so silly to have asked that because He did give me
an assignment. I nodded, He tapped my shoulder twice.
Next thing I knew, I was back in the room, with my companions. I was back here
on earth. I had the feeling of longing more of HIM beginning to escalate. Wait,
I thought. God take me back. Most definitely I wanted more and more of HIM.
More of His smile, His peace, His comfort, His touch, His presence; But of
course, just like what He reminded me, I still have my mission to fulfill. I
still have a purpose. I am just so delighted to be given a chance to see Him
and I know that this won't be the end. I will see Him again, He promised it.
I'll' see HIM again, I don't know when or how, but I will. Dwelling in HIS
presence is a feeling that goes BEYOND WORDS. It's beyond contentment and
beyond satisfaction. That's how HE made me feel, How HE makes me feel.
It's weird because you'd think that when you meet Him and get there, You'd be
asking a lot of questions, but no, once you're standing before Him, all you
have is contentment. I really hope and pray that everyone would experience
this, standing before Him and being with Him. A Blessed Journey. It's never too
late, you'll get your chance to see Him. It's an encounter that changes your
perspective about things, about everything. I love God, I know God, I know what
Christ did for me, but after my encounter with Him, I can say that I now know
what it is like to FALL IN LOVE, be IN LOVE and BE LOVED. That's what has
happened to me, I have fallen deeply, madly and truly in love with GOD. I now
have this standard of what it feels like to be in love with someone, just the
way He looked at me expressed what LOVE really is. I have fallen for HIM. and
this time, it has hit me. BIG TIME. He has also revealed so many things to me,
which actually fills my heart with so much excitement. But for now, Let's just
wait. Excitedly waiting for next time, HE did say "Not YET" :)
Stay BLESSED
Not only does this verse remind me of the beauty that God generously gave each of us but also; He reminded me that we, HIS princesses are worth pursuing. The reason why women has a higher threshold for patience (men, no offense but you guys are pursuers and not the ones being pursued) is because we were designed to wait and not to pursue. We were created by our Heavenly Father to be pursued and not to pursue.
As women, we were lead to believe that we should aim to have a "happily ever after" type of life or live a life of a Disney Princess-hey I too am guilty of this. For the longest time, I wanted to be Ariel or Repaunzel because these two are my favorite princesses. That is why for the longest time, Eric was my favorite guy name; but today, I was convicted by the Holy Spirit that instead of aiming to be a Disney Princess, I should aim to be a Heavenly Princess--an identity and a right that has been bestowed to us by the Most High. I most definitely should live a life of a Heavenly Princess, and starting today, I am going to. Join me in this journey my sisters. Let's live a life the way our King wants us to live. Free and within HIS dwelling. 
