Crossroads

Before my mind starts to throw-up; let me share this poem that I wrote that pretty much sums it up:

http://sassyintrepid.blogspot.com/2014/02/crossroads.html

Feel free to visit this page, I also handle and manage it. All the works there are mine. It's just more on the artistic side of me, anyway, I know that it is indeed Valentine's Day or the day of Love as some people may call it, but this post is NOT about love at all. No, it is not about relationships, or love or romance-- nothing like that in this post, rather, this is something that most Singles, INCLUDING myself longs to have, and NO it is NOT a lifetime partner or a love life; but DIRECTION.

For the longest time, this is what I have been praying constantly for. DIRECTION. Yeah, it seems like a normal word that we all hear, but do we all realize the gravity of its meaning? Think about it, I don't mean to break the chain of what Singles normally obsess about which is being with someone, being in a relationship and getting married, that's fine, if that is for you, but before that season of your life comes, what have you been doing so far? Don't get me wrong, I am not against relationships, whatever. But, shout out to Singles out there, do you spend the same amount of time praying for God's direction in your life? In terms of your career? Have you really achieved EVERYTHING you wanted in life before praying for your lifetime partner? and more importantly, are you really ready for a relationship? For a commitment? or better yet, to settle down and have a family? The fact that you still have this want to be with someone just so you could feel contented, happy and fulfilled only indicates how unready and unstable you are. Sometimes we might think that we need to be with people in order to make the right decision or even to know how to pray properly for the things that we "want" --this is true, to a fault. There are times when we need to just distance ourselves from people that we may hear the real calling of God, that we may know how and what to pray for without the influence of others. I admit that I was one of the people who was influenced by others on what to pray for. It's sad but it's true, I used to pray for my partner because everyone was doing it, because there were influential people in my life who were doing it and advised me to do it. I thought that I was ready for a commitment, to be in a relationship because I was praying for my life partner, but while I was doing this, something just felt...OFF. I wasn't ready and I really didn't want to. It took me several years to realize that. To genuinely know that I am not ready to commit or submit to a man, not because I don't want to (that's partly the reason) but because there are still many things that I want to do with and in my life. I came to this epiphany when I got the healthy amount of DISTANCE from people and focused my everything on to God. He spoke with my soul. I realized that I don't really like to be with someone, I prefer to be alone, to have my thoughts to myself and be sold out to God. I am not saying that I have the gift of blessed singleness, but at this point of my life, being in a relationship is not my priority. There are still things that God wants me to do and fulfill and as of now, that is my priority--to fulfill HIS purpose for me. Remember that just because you are single, it does not mean that you cannot be happy, the truth is you do not need anyone to make you happy, you have a soul so beautifully crafted by our Creator, a soul that has been made whole and well, trust your soul, trust God and dwell in HIS presence; that is the only way to find true happiness and contentment.

There is nothing wrong with being alone. In fact, it is even healthier, you get to think for yourself, have your own thoughts and you have this wonderful opportunity of knowing yourself and reinventing yourself. Singleness is the wonderful season of possibilities, of turning dreams into realities, of doing what makes you happy, of enjoying life to the fullest, enjoying and exploring the wonderful world that God has created. Enjoy it. You get to make your own DECISION. Deciding and Standing firmly for what you believe in takes courage and bravery and these abilities only comes from GOD. I tell you, decisions won't be easy, in fact it is just one of the hardest thing to do in life, but once you make a decision, stick with it and of course, allow the Holy Spirit to guide you through it.

I suggest that you'd lessen the effort you're currently giving praying for your partner and redirect your attention in earnestly seeking God in leading you towards HIS will and direction for your life. I mean, ENJOY life being single. Travel, make lots of song covers, go to the beach, heck, go to Paris for crying out loud! Explore and Experience. Let GOD fulfill HIS promises for you, focus on your career, buy the cars you want, the outfits that you want, go star gazing, go for a picnic. ENJOY your life, Stop holding yourself captive to finding "The One". Life is not meant to be lived like that, what, you think that when "The One" comes, you'll be living Happily Ever After? of course not! that doesnt even exist. SINGLEHOOD is the BEST time to know yourself, know the things you want and DO the things you want, Allow GOD to lead you in fulfilling HIS purpose for your life, be a BLESSING to other people, go on Mission Trips, Go mountain climbing, hiking, sky diving--Do all the things that you want to do because this is YOUR time, the season where you are free to discover who you really are and who you want to be. The season when GOD's voice would constantly remind you to trust HIM as you go through different crossroads in life. Pray for HIS direction and seek HIS attention.

DIRECTION. This is something that every person needs, direction. Well, who can best direct us to our purpose and plan but God. Allow HIM to direct us on where to go and what to do. He knows what HE is doing. The funny thing about society and media's picture of Singleness is desperation, and the worst part, we succumb to that picture that society painted and tampered for us. We become so obsessed with being with someone that it more often than not leads to brokeness and destruction rather than the opposite which is peace and contentment. Think about it, when we're single, we can do whatever we want, we have no commitments, and that is one of the BEST feelings ever in my opinion because there is NOTHING holding us back. So for those serial daters, get your crap together first, you do not need anyone to fill the void in your heart, you have to find your inner peace and learn to love yourself. Feel and BE whole. You should stop looking for your better half because you do not need someone who's half anyway, you should work on making yourself whole to attract another whole person to grow together. Now is the time to figure out what you want to do with your life. Stop rushing into relationships and dating. It isnt healthy and it is VERY MUCH OKAY TO BE SINGLE. ENJOY IT while it lasts.

Now, for those who are still struggling from being a serial dater, dont panic. It isnt too late to change that, nothing is written in stone, there is always room for new beginnings, clean slates, and start overs. 

This Valentines Day, make it different. Instead of moping and feeling sorry for yourself because you don't have anyone with you, who cares? Stop conforming into society and enjoy this season. Love the people around you. 

"You make known to me the path of life;you will fill me with joy in your presence,with eternal pleasures at your right hand." -Psalm 16:11

Ricochet

"Let us then approach God's throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy&find grace to help us in our time of need."-Hebrews 4:16

  In moments when we feel like crying, heavily burdened&alone, call on to God. Most of the time, we think that what we need is someone to talk to so we could feel somewhat lighter/better, today, God reminded me that all we really need to do is pray.GOD should be our number one priority, our number one partner in anything&everything. So, PRAY.

   Sometimes we have this weird concept about prayer should be done during our quiet time or at church.No, we can talk to HIM any time.During His time on earth, Jesus prayed. He entrusted everything to God through prayer, even His reputation&life. We can do the same. We don't have to explain all the problems to Him; we can just give them to Him&ask Him to take care of everything.No need for a flowery prayer,Just have confidence in simple, believing prayer. Look at Paul's instructions in Philippians 4:6-7 (Philippians 4:6-7 NIV
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.). Instead of worrying, simply pray&ask God for help when you find yourself in a difficult situation.God is faithful,that's one of His major characteristics.

   So trust Him totally& completely. Any time;any day, just pray :) Enjoy the throne of Grace!

Stay BLESSED :)

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Assurance

"Now FAITH is CONFIDENCE in what we hope for, and ASSURANCE about what we do not see" -Hebrews 11:1

    I woke up today, light headed, dizzy, nauseous. It is a feeling that I have felt before. An unpleasant feeling for sure, but I made one of the biggest mistakes, instead of asking for healing, I just rushed into the day. I had work, I had to prepare, I had to make breakfast, I had so much to accomplish today, but I neglected ONE of the most important things to do before anything else. I did not spare any time to stop everything and pray. 
   As my day began, I was preparing for work, in a rush, still feeling all these unpleasant feelings. I suddenly had this head rush, this throbbing pumping pain on the right side of my head. Not good I thought. But still considering and thinking I'm fine, I can do this I still continued prepping for work. Before leaving I decided to take my blood pressure cause I can feel the unwanted physical feelings escalating into something worse, and lo and behold. My bp shot up to 180/120. Thinking and considering the huge factor that I might have made a mistake while taking my bp, I took it again. Same result. I started to feel the panic. My heart began racing, I felt like I was going to pass out. I stood up and started pacing. I didn't want to sit down because the more I tried to calm myself and rest, the more nauseous I felt, I drank lots and lots and LOTS of water, ate banana just calm myself down. It was shocking. Everyone was asleep here at home and I didn't want to wake anyone up at 4:00 in the morning. I'll be honest, I felt scared. Scared of what could happen, Scared of what might happen. Finally, I sat down, and did that ONE thing that I should have started my day with. I prayed, I worshiped my Father, I called on to HIM and asked for HIS healing and HIS comfort. And of course, as always, He answered my prayer. He comforted me like no one else could and HE assured me that HE is with me through HIS word:
'This is what I covenanted with you when you came out of Egypt. And my Spirit remains among you. Do not fear.' -Haggai 2:5 
   The moment I read HIS word, all the anxiety in me faded. All my fears and worries, gone. He reminded me that HIS Spirit with me and that I should have called unto HIM since the very beginning. Now, my bp has dropped down to 160/100. It is still quite high, but it is better than what I had this morning. I feel a little better now, but rest is still much needed. Sure I was not able to come to work, sure I did call in sick but at least, I have HIS word in me. I don't know what will happen next, I still have a LOT of things to accomplish, but you know what, I am not worried. He made a promise and I know that HE will keep that promise